As I regained strength, I felt my vibrancy begin to peek through. No longer dulled by the medications to treat the cancer or the medications to treat the side effects of chemotherapy, I was sharper, more focused. I was very uneasy, yet extremely excited about the possibilities inherent in my newly regained good health. And, I was acutely aware that at any moment this could change. I was learning to become comfortable living on both sides of the fence. Living with an eye to future, trying to make plans again and being as present as possible in my life- right now.
This is In-between time.
Now my cancer is terminal. All time has become- now. There will be no more in-between time. There will only be joyous, loving time until the end.